Friday, January 14, 2011

if i had a type then baby it would be you. ♥

gosh, life is amazing.. oh HAPPY LATE NEW YEARS. ;)
okay like i was saying, life is really good right now. (: my love life is amazing, lol. not so much my home life but i'm not complaining. it's starting to get better, everyone is getting along & things are smooooth. ha. just got done with finals, think i did okay? besides algebra 2, fml. lol, it's all good. DRAMA FREE. still. (: haha, i think i can say i am happy, happy with who i have on my side, happy with all my girls, & happy with everyone who has gotten me this happy. lol. (:

oh btw, i bought my winter formal ticketttttttt. ♥ ;D
SO EXCITED! it's next saturday, whoop! [:

Friday, December 31, 2010

2O11 baby, here we come. ♥

i really can't even believe 2O1O is like over, today's the last day. it went by so fast, like honestly where did it even go? haha. things should be way better this new year, i see things starting that i don't mind starting at all. ;) going to the movies tomorrow, way to start off the year right? hah, i'm ready to begin a new year, with the lack of drama in my life.. things should be way good. ♥

oh & thank you ALL who have gotten me here to this point, so happy with my life. without you guys, i really don't know where i would be, & if i could possibly survive. i love you all. (:

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

we some asshole niggas'$♥(:

in school :/ ha, borrrred. doing a paper on the roaring 20's.
ehh ; get me outta here! okay, so my day has pretty much
SUCKED. thinking about nonsense all day, it's just not right.
i don't want to like you ; i SHOULDN'T like you. but it's there ;
& i don't know how to get rid of that feeling. i hate that i do.
i don't want to make things bad between us ; at all. i feel so bad :/

UGH!

Saturday, October 16, 2010

just so you know <|3


I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away

I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

Just so you know
This feeling's taking control of me
And I can't help it
I won't sit around, I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want to
I just gotta say it all
Before I go
Just so you know

It's getting hard to be around you
There's so much I can't say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other way

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

This emptiness is killing me
And I'm wondering why I've waited so long
Looking back I realize
It was always there just never spoken
I'm waiting here...been waiting here

Friday, October 15, 2010

i can't do this;

you're messing with my head. when are you finally gonna give me what i want? whenever you're done with your current worries? i hate coming last to you; i hate being hidden. i hate how you treat me; i hate everything you say to me. you get my hopes up; for what? for the fact that i MIGHT still be here when you're finally ready? i don't need to put up with this shit anymore; yet i'm still hangin' around. what the FUCK are you gonna do? you gonna man up & face the fucking music you put on? or are you gonna choke & leave me stranded like you always do? is something gonna be different with us, or am i just getting my hopes up for nothing? you need to figure this shit out; & when you do pray to god i'm still here.

Sunday, October 10, 2010

i must be insaneee.

you don't know what you do to me. you drive me completely mad.
i want to up & leave, but i can't seem to grab my balls & do it.
i'm afraid you are the only person who is capable of handling me.
you did; for a long ass time. & now i don't think anyone else
will be able to control this; who will stick around long enough.
you have me so scared.. i just can't stand what this is doing
to me. there's nothing more in the world that i want more than
you. don't you see that? you just.. you just complete me in ways
that i don't fully understand. i'm insane. completely insane.

Saturday, September 18, 2010

back & forth no more, finally DONE with you.

Here I am again, doing things I said that I wouldn't do
It's 3AM and I'm rushing out the door to see you
Waiting, all day, but now you wanna call me
Why do you do this to me all the time?

After all the things you put me through, still I come right back
But now I know the truth, I can finally see
You only want me when you're lonely
If I say I'm gonna leave, that's the only time you want me
Next time you need me there I won't make it
Another late night call I won't take it
Cause now I finally see, you only want me when you're lonely
Only when you're lonely, lonely
Only when you're lonely
Only when you're lonely, lonely
Only when you're lonely

Had me fooled from the start and I quickly gave my heart
Cause I loved you, loved you, loved you
But this is what happens when you're a lonely girl with no one to turn you
Now I'm stronger, don't need you any longer
So get off your knees, your words don't mean anything

After all the things you put me through, ooh still I come right back
But now I know the truth, I can finally see
You only want me when you're lonely
If I say I'm gonna leave, that's the only time you want me
Next time you need me there I won't make it
Another late night call I won't take it
Cause now I finally see, you only want me when you're lonely

Oh, nothing's ever changing, decisions you can't make it
You just think of yourself and never me at all
If you're with your friends, you just string me along
But I won't allow it anymore, so it's time for me to move on

Cause I can finally see, you only want me when you're lonely
If I say I'm gonna leave, that's the only time you want me
Next time you need me there I won't make it
Another late night call I won't take it
Cause now I finally see, you only want me when you're lonely
Only when you're lonely, lonely
Only when you're lonely
Only when you're lonely, lonely
Only when you're lonely

I can finally see, you only want me when you're lonely
If I say I'm gonna leave, that's the only time you want me
Next time you need me there I won't make it
Another late night call I won't take it
Cause now I finally see, you only want me when you're lonely.





honestly, that song fits so perfect right nowwww. "Only When You're Lonely" - Bruno Mars.
i'm not coming back, that's final. i'm sorry, you missed your chance. you gave up your spot,
& now i have someone who's willing to fill that in ♥

i like him so much, it's crazy. it's so amazing to not be numb to these feelings anymore.
just being able to FEEL again.. that feeling that i get whenever i'm around him.. it's indescribable.
& to know that out of all the other girls in this world, 8 BILLION PEOPLE, & he chose me.
i can't even explain it, it's just an instant confidence boost ;] spending time with him, it's
always so much fun(: haha. things are going so perfect, he's so perfect, this whole situation
is perfect, LIFE IS PERFECT. & i don't think i can be any happier than what i am now.. ♥

[c]razy(: