2O11 baby, here we come. ♥

i really can't even believe 2O1O is like over, today's the last day. it went by so fast, like honestly where did it even go? haha. things should be way better this new year, i see things starting that i don't mind starting at all. ;) going to the movies tomorrow, way to start off the year right? hah, i'm ready to begin a new year, with the lack of drama in my life.. things should be way good. ♥

oh & thank you ALL who have gotten me here to this point, so happy with my life. without you guys, i really don't know where i would be, & if i could possibly survive. i love you all. (:

we some asshole niggas'$♥(:

in school :/ ha, borrrred. doing a paper on the roaring 20's.
ehh ; get me outta here! okay, so my day has pretty much
SUCKED. thinking about nonsense all day, it's just not right.
i don't want to like you ; i SHOULDN'T like you. but it's there ;
& i don't know how to get rid of that feeling. i hate that i do.
i don't want to make things bad between us ; at all. i feel so bad :/

UGH!

just so you know <|3

I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away

I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

Just so you know
This feeling's taking control of me
And I can't help it
I won't sit around, I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want to
I just gotta say it all
Before I go
Just so you know

It's getting hard to be around you
There's so much I can't say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other way

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

This emptiness is killing me
And I'm wondering why I've waited so long
Looking back I realize
It was always there just never spoken
I'm waiting here...been waiting here

i can't do this;

you're messing with my head. when are you finally gonna give me what i want? whenever you're done with your current worries? i hate coming last to you; i hate being hidden. i hate how you treat me; i hate everything you say to me. you get my hopes up; for what? for the fact that i MIGHT still be here when you're finally ready? i don't need to put up with this shit anymore; yet i'm still hangin' around. what the FUCK are you gonna do? you gonna man up & face the fucking music you put on? or are you gonna choke & leave me stranded like you always do? is something gonna be different with us, or am i just getting my hopes up for nothing? you need to figure this shit out; & when you do pray to god i'm still here.

i must be insaneee.

you don't know what you do to me. you drive me completely mad.
i want to up & leave, but i can't seem to grab my balls & do it.
i'm afraid you are the only person who is capable of handling me.
you did; for a long ass time. & now i don't think anyone else
will be able to control this; who will stick around long enough.
you have me so scared.. i just can't stand what this is doing
to me. there's nothing more in the world that i want more than
you. don't you see that? you just.. you just complete me in ways
that i don't fully understand. i'm insane. completely insane.

back & forth no more, finally DONE with you.

Here I am again, doing things I said that I wouldn't do

It's 3AM and I'm rushing out the door to see you

Waiting, all day, but now you wanna call me

Why do you do this to me all the time?

After all the things you put me through, still I come right back

But now I know the truth, I can finally see

You only want me when you're lonely

If I say I'm gonna leave, that's the only time you want me

Next time you need me there I won't make it

Another late night call I won't take it

Cause now I finally see, you only want me when you're lonely

Only when you're lonely, lonely

Only when you're lonely

Only when you're lonely, lonely

Only when you're lonely

Had me fooled from the start and I quickly gave my heart

Cause I loved you, loved you, loved you

But this is what happens when you're a lonely girl with no one to turn you

Now I'm stronger, don't need you any longer

So get off your knees, your words don't mean anything

After all the things you put me through, ooh still I come right back

But now I know the truth, I can finally see

You only want me when you're lonely

If I say I'm gonna leave, that's the only time you want me

Next time you need me there I won't make it

Another late night call I won't take it

Cause now I finally see, you only want me when you're lonely

Oh, nothing's ever changing, decisions you can't make it

You just think of yourself and never me at all

If you're with your friends, you just string me along

But I won't allow it anymore, so it's time for me to move on

Cause I can finally see, you only want me when you're lonely

If I say I'm gonna leave, that's the only time you want me

Next time you need me there I won't make it

Another late night call I won't take it

Cause now I finally see, you only want me when you're lonely

Only when you're lonely, lonely

Only when you're lonely

Only when you're lonely, lonely

Only when you're lonely

I can finally see, you only want me when you're lonely

If I say I'm gonna leave, that's the only time you want me

Next time you need me there I won't make it

Another late night call I won't take it

Cause now I finally see, you only want me when you're lonely.

honestly, that song fits so perfect right nowwww. "Only When You're Lonely" - Bruno Mars.

i'm not coming back, that's final. i'm sorry, you missed your chance. you gave up your spot,

& now i have someone who's willing to fill that in ♥

i like him so much, it's crazy. it's so amazing to not be numb to these feelings anymore.

just being able to FEEL again.. that feeling that i get whenever i'm around him.. it's indescribable.

& to know that out of all the other girls in this world, 8 BILLION PEOPLE, & he chose me.

i can't even explain it, it's just an instant confidence boost ;] spending time with him, it's

always so much fun(: haha. things are going so perfect, he's so perfect, this whole situation

is perfect, LIFE IS PERFECT. & i don't think i can be any happier than what i am now.. ♥

[c]razy(:

I rekindle the flame ; ♥

So, me & Richard broke up. Most of you know the story.. yeah, but now he wants to give me ANOTHER chance & I am DAMN happy(: I know that this time it's gonna work.. because if that one thing didn't happen then I wouldn't know how much I love him & how much he loves me. We're not together.. YET [; Haha. So yes, things will WORK this time.. you don't even knowww ♥

Like I said, everything happens for a reason ((:

So school ;

Starts next Monday, FML.

I don't want to go back, especially with this schedule :

Honors English 10 - Skousen

Chemistry - Russo

Spanish 2 - Diaz

General Art - Wiedlin

Honors Algebra 2 - Bellermann

Honors World History - King-Sesanto

Gosh dang, it's gonna suck BALLS.

But at least I have World History, excited about that♥

Wtf, HOW did I get general art? BLEGH,

there is not ONE artistic bone in this body, lmao.

Happy happy happy.. I saw him on Monday (:
Feels like nothing's changed♥

Oh & that SLUT was there, jesus.. can she get any UGLIER?

Haha, my sister has bigger boobs than her! Lmao,

& Why exactly was she standing around us? I guess

Hailey wouldn't stop dogging her, so she says :D

You know, I hate her GUTS. I've seen more spine

in JELLYFISH. Haha, anyways (:

Follow me♥

You're an alien (:

Yes, I'm starting this back up again!!

So follow me, you know you wanna ♥

Got what I wanted lastnight, I am SO happy!

Yehp, me & Richard are back together.

& I know a lot of you people are gonna be like, 'WTF?!'

You guys don't have to understand, so HA.

I'm happy, & that's all that matters right now.

Kthnx :D

one tough act to follow(:♥

so i find out on here that i can't do the 'less that 3' heart. that makes me so mad.
it says something like, 'broken link.' HAHA, that's whackkkkk.

anywhooo → HAPPY VALENTINES DAY♥ mine started off okay, i liked my text i got(:
but i got like 80 million from sooooo many people d: haha, it was crazy. i can't stand
fighting with him anymore; i can't do it. so i'm gonna try my HARDEST to please him
all the time(:♥ no more fighting baby! i promise♥

i'm talking to PeeJay right now! [: he's sooooooo cool; we gotts to kick it sometime d:

i WAS gonna go to the movies; but i jst had to hurt my momma's feelings :( i told her
i wasn't gonna have ANY part in the party yesterday. i didn't want to deal with all those
kids. plus something HORRIBLE happened. she jst wouldn't be able to understand :((

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